I was really depressed yesterday. It just hit me out of the blue. Not sure why though I know it is tied to my period being more than a week early. I walked around all day lamenting not having any close friends and it really got me down.
Which is strange because the times when I am not depressed…I am fine with it. DH, Podling, Babyhead and the one or two friends I do have are plenty for me and I am content if not happy. I am not sure where all this comes from sometimes.
I have always been a bit of a loner. Always more than happy to spend time by myself with the occasional friend to talk to now and again. I never really held the same ideals or wants that other women had so all I could really stand was occasional contact anyway. I don’t care about fashion or makeup or soap operas or any of that usual “woman” stuff.
I think that it what was bothering me yesterday. I really have no shared interests with most people and a few that I do share interests with…well…they tend to annoy me. For some reason a good number of gamer chicks are just that…female versions of their counterparts. Annoying and dorky and have no other interests outside their games.
That isn’t to say that I don’t have people that I consider friends that I talk to on a regular basis. I do. And they don’t annoy me. And we have enough in common to forgo boring each other with the things we don’t have in common.
My Dr H keeps telling me I need to make friends. Well, it isn’t that easy for me. I have no way to really get out of the house at any given time though I have tried to make friends here in the apartments. I have joined message boards in hopes of gaining friends, but that only lasts for a while…
I guess I will let this post just peeter out now since most of what is in my mind is gone…maybe I will revisit it another day.